It's just a month....

     maybe other people ask me why am i like this,when in fact we lasted for only 44 days or one month and 14days...

    "reasons why I kept holding on
     because of the words unsaid
     things wasn't explained
     second chance wasn't given"

     If other people only knew, I gave my all to that person, I never thought that he will came my way. What happened is very unexpected. First and foremost it was not him whom I prayed for. I thought it would last even though its very complicated, I tried my very best to keep it secret. I tried my best to make our relationship last, but it seems that destiny made a way to separate us. A very simple misunderstanding that lead to a big issue, which resulted to our breakup. It hurts because one night changes us. I remember that night when he walks away, I knew he saw me at the corner of my tita's house crying, but he never took time to talk to me, how i wish he did maybe this will not happen,if he only open his heart and mind. Maybe we're still okey if I only shut my mouth. He never knew how much hurt it caused me. On the other hand when our relationship was spread out to our circle of friends and cousins I know things will never be the same. I know it's harder for him to act like nothing happened. He's the one left in our town, I'm residing here in Manila, while he resides in our town. He's the one left to answer the issue. I felt sorry for what I did, hoping that time will come, the issue will be forgotten. I love him, maybe time will come i will be able to forget him the way i forgot my previous boyfriends. I treasured every moment with him, those times when we used to talk for hours, we used to exchanged sweet messages, those stolen moments with him talking and laughing, those simple care when were with our cousins.. If they only knew, I tried my best to go back to my first year subject in law school, in order to defend our situation when things comes up. Even till now, i wish he didn't let me go, I wish he talked to me, I wish he managed to listen to me, he managed to take time to know why I need to said it.. I wish time will come, he will understand me.

    It's just a month, a month full of happiness, a month I thought would lasts. But for some reasons it did't. Whereever you are I wish time will come you will take time to know the reason behind the words I've said...